Now

I see you now
In your new life
The one that doesn't include me
I see you now
And you seem happy
I see you now
And think of then
I see you now
And hope that someday
It will be my turn
To find a little piece of happiness
I'm glad you found
What you wanted
I wish it had been me
Me who found what I wanted
Me who was what you wanted
I see you now
In your new life
The one without me
I see you now
You seem happy
Someday soon
It will be my turn

No Excuses

There are no excuses
for what I did to you
I could give you reasons
I could tell you
I was hurting
I wanted you to hurt like me
I could tell you
I was scared
i didn't know what to do
Ic ould tell you
I didn't know what I was doing
Until it was too late
I could tell you
You got too close
I could not breathe
I could tell you
I wanted to push you away
Before you did the same to me
I could justify my actions
In many ways and forms
But that would not change the fact
There are no excuses
For what I did to you.

Why?

Would it hurt this much
If it were not love?
Why
Do all my relationships end
This way?
Me
Left and Forgotten
Not important at all
What is it
That I do?
Because
the common denominator
Is me
Do I love
Too freely?
But that is not me
Miser of love
Is more my speed
Should I love
More freely?
But how could
I bear
The pain
When it almost
Kills me now
Should I be
More careful
In my selection?
But then
I did not set out
To love them
It just happened
There was nothing
I could do
To stop it
Or should
I just not love
At all?
Save myself from
All the pain
Oh, that I were
Dead inside
Would it hurt this much
If it were not love?

Faded

I wonder
If you ever think of me
If you ever regret the loss of what we had
Are you like me
thinking about what once was
Or have you forgotten
All that we shared
Will it be
that someday we'll meet
And you won't know
Who I am
You'll say ' I may have known
Someone like you...
Once upon a time'
My heart will be
Crushed
The memories
I hold so dear
Nothing but a faded glimmer
To you
Tell me how
To be like you
Tell me how
To move on
Forget all that we shared
The joy
The tears
Make it all but
A faded memory
I wonder
If you ever think of me
If you ever regret the loss of what we had