The other side

I never let myself
Fall
I see the pain
It's caused others
I don't want that
To be me
Hurting
So much
Because I let
You get close
I sit inside
Watching the people
Go by
Wishing I could be them
Fearless
Not afraid
Of what is on
The other side
Of the window
Instead
I sit here
Watching
Life passing by
Wiping the tears
From my eyes

Emptiness

There is a darkness inside me
An emptiness few see
No one knows its depth
I cover it up with smiles
Pretend that it's not there
But soon it overtakes me
I try to hold it back
Thry to fill the hole inside
But nothing makes it better
LIght does nothing to dim the darkness
There is a darkness inside me
An emptiness few see

Stuck

Why am I still stuck here
Unable to move forward
Why do you get to go on
Move on with your own life
When you're the reason I'm here
It isn't fair
Why must I receive the punishment
Why can't I move on
Sometimes I think about telling ou
All the ways that you hurt me
I want to show you all the scars
You left behind
But then I see you
And it's like I'm back
At the beginning
Unable to say a word
Unable to make a move
Unable to unleash what is inside of me
Why am I the one who is stuck here
Unable to move forward
Why am I the one who is punished
When I did nothing wrong
Why do you get to go on
Move on with your own life
When you're the reason I am here
Stuck at the beginning
Unable to move forward
Stuck in this place
Where you belong
Life just isn't fair.

Chain Reaction

We are all connected
It's a chain reaction
The hurt and the pain
Passed from one to another
The grief dragging us down
Do you see what you've done
Does it matter to you?
We are all connected
It's a chain reaction
The hurt inflicted on you
Is inflicted on me too
It's becoming too much to bear
Do you see what you've done
Does it matter to you?
We are all connected
It's a chain reaction
Why must the chain be made of pain
Can it not be a happiness reaction
Passing on joy and hope to one another
Do you see what can be done
Does it matter to you
We are all connected
It's a chain reaction

Eye of the Hurricane

The storm has past
The rain has stopped
The sun is shining
The world seems so bright.
Is this the truth,
or is it just the eye of the hurricane
My life wasn't going so well
Weverything was topsy turvy & upside down
Nothing going my way
No sun shining on me
But then there was you
The gray skies faded away
And the sun was all around me
Is this the truth,
or is it just the eye of the hurricane
Are the gray skies gone for good
Is the sunshine here to stay
Or is this the calm before the storm
What we had was so good
I thought it'd last forever
But things went wrong
The storm clouds moved in
I looked for you
I wanted you by my side
I hoped we could ride the storm out together
But through the wind and the rain
I couldn't find you
Are you gone for good
Or are you just lost
will you appear when the rain stops
Or will the sun never shine on me again
Is this the truth
Or is it just the eye of the hurricane
Are the gray skies gone for good
I the sunshine here to stay
Or is this just the calm before the storm

You told me to be myself
Stay true to who I am
That I would be loved for who I am
So I dropped my defenses
Showed you the true me
And nnow I can't find you
No matter how hard I look