In to the Black

(6/10/06)
I'm out too far
Where the water turns black
I'm exhausted
From trying to stay afloat
I pray for death to find me
To take me away from the pain
But it doesn't come
My legs keep churning
Attempting to keep my head aboue water
In the distance I see the boat
I cry out for assistance
"Please help me" I cry
"For I cannot go on"
"Swim to shore" they say
"You can make it"
I look for land
But all I see is ocean
"You can swim out of the blue"
they cry as they sail right past me
"I can swim out of the blue" I say
"But can't you see,
The blue is long gone.
I'm out in the black"
I want to give up
Stop my fruitless paddling
I'm tired
of being tossed around
Like flotsom
among the brutal waves
Pushed this way,
Pulled that way
I want to sink
Into the black
To be dragged under
In to the silent, peaceful
Endless night